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pouring one out … of my heart

austin stair — Wed, 26 May 2010 16:00:26 +0000

august 2008 - may 2010

there are not enough beers to pour on the table.

i do not how to explain that yesterday was the hardest day i’ve had in a while, that putting olive to sleep broke my heart into tiny slivers, that i cry when i think of her chirping or when i imagine i see her in the window.i could pour and pour and pour and it wouldn’t be enough. i do not know the way to pour one out for olive. i do not know how i am supposed to honor my cat – who loved me, thought i was a ten and the rest of the world huge zeros.

olive loved me and only me – she trusted me – and i have to harness all the faith i have to believe that this was the right tact. that she is happy in her new somewhere. that there are plenty windows and cat treats and that she can rip apart as much toilet paper as she wants.

many people, especially kate, have let me pour my heart out to them – have told me that it WAS the right tact, that she was a risk, a liability, and that it wasn’t getting better and in fact, it WAS getting worse. it is true – she was risky and scary and she attacked the direct tv guy for nothing more than being in our house. she was also my friend. i loved her. i thought she was beautiful and sweet. she made me smile. she took care of me when i was lonely and shared in my happiness. i miss her and imagine i will for quite some time to come.

there are not enough words to pour out of my heart.

never gets old

austin stair — Thu, 29 Apr 2010 00:33:36 +0000

cat in a bag - olive is a nut!

it’s fair to say she likes the treehouse

austin stair — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 05:49:00 +0000

[but when did she get SO enormous?!]

karma

austin stair — Sun, 12 Oct 2008 20:25:00 +0000

after suffering through over three hours of a brutal defensive battle between the vikings and the lions, the boys at fox give me some bonus coverage and switched to the redskins/rams game just in time for me to see the 49-yard knife to the heart from josh brown. i’m not sure what’s bonus about that.

sunday nights are already tough enough, without adding insult to injury. if i’ve got to go back to the grind on monday, it’d certainly be better with a win, as opposed to a chip, on my shoulder.

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olive, on the other hand, is taking it pretty well. life is tough for this puffball.

i think she’s bulking up

austin stair — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 02:10:00 +0000

update: she has, in fact, fattened up — she gained over a pound in the last month and now weighs a whopping 2.4 lbs!

size matters

austin stair — Sat, 30 Aug 2008 16:44:00 +0000

when my siblings and i were babies, my parents took pictures of us next to the telephone to illustrate how small we were. when we got older, these pictures would surface, along with the commentary, “i can’t believe YOU used to be so little.”

since olive is my “baby” and there seems to be some discussion about her size and weight, i’ve copied my parents, and below is olive with the comcast remote for scale.

the vet said she weighed 1.2 pounds AND i saw 1.2 light up in red LCD on the scale’s display. this is not something i could make up. she is a tiny, tiny, teacup of a kitten. she is constantly curling herself into small spaces, including the small of back and the crook of my neck.